It doesn’t matters what others think of you, what matters is what you think of you.
So see I have a tablet for surfing the internet and one bigger size tablet just for writing, which meant it had no Facebook. twitter, messenger, etc. downloaded on it, so I wouldn’t get those pesky notifications when I was trying to write.
Well on that writing tablet not only was my personal writings, but access to my blog as well.
3 months ago my writing tablet decided that his life could no longer go on so he died. the worst thing to happen to a writer, in fact.
I had to wait until I got funds so I could buy a new replacement. That day finally came and I purchased a laptop.
So here I am again back to my blog. Oh how I have missed you.
so what has happened in the last 3 months? Not much…besides going insane lol..
I finally won my disability case and now I can properly care for myself.
I have still been doing my self rehabilitation, thanks to my aquatic center. Best investment, well after this laptop, in my life.
Its so weird that last time I wrote it was so hot outside and now here we are in the midst of fall. I feel like so much more has happened but yet my mind is drawing a blank.
I have not needed my disability meds to be adjusted, which is good as my body has finally adjusted to the medications being in my body…so I went full force into caring for myself, I got my exercise (again I love the pool), I am on my low carb diet, I am watching my calories, no eating after 8pm, and one day a week and one week a month(shark week) I increase my carbs and calories just a tad, so I go from 20 net carbs up to 25. Hey, I know my body and I know shark week is a beast of insatiable cravings.
As of August 17th I took control of my life, my body; once again I was in control. Not the doctors. Not the medication. Not the disability. But ME. I was in control.
So as of August 17th I have lost 30 pounds.
I am pretty happy with the results thus far, I gotta say. Its easy to say I wish I had lost more, but why do that. Why set yourself up to fail.
Be happy with what you have and where you have come from. Don’t wish for more than you have or else you will soon have nothing.
If you start wanting more, you will be risking more and possibly causing irreversible damage. Don’t harm your body trying to attain a fantasy or else your body will not support you when you need it to. Live in the reality; where being happy with your daily progress is what matters. You are not in a competition, you are on a journey for better health so you are walking this planet for even longer to experience many more of these beautiful autumn days.
Now you can have the best intentions in this WOL. Eating right and exercising. But what happens when something keeps happening and pulling you off your path on this journey?
This past week I stubbed my toe resulting in the loss of my nail. I jammed my finger into a chair leaving me unable to use my right hand. I got bit by something that resulted in my foot having a rash at the bite site and swollen foot, it hurt to wiggle my toes and it was so tender to walk on my foot. I was walking outside I saw a puddle and thought, “I need to watch the puddle so I don’t get wet.” as soon as I thought that, I had lost my balance and fell right into the puddle. My clothes, shoes, purse, hair was full of mud. My elbow and knee were scrapped up and bleeding. I was making my coffee when I couldnt lift my foot, up the step that led into the kitchen and I dropped my glass carafe shattering it all over the floor, luckily i only cut my foot once on a missed shard of glass. To end my week on a high note. I sliced my thumb, so deeply and badly that I almost cut the tip off. Here I was cutting asparagus when my hand decided to have a jerking tremor. *SLICE*
So due to my ummm..unfortunate accidents. I was unable to go to the pool for my exercise. I think that hurt more than any of the injuries.
It would have been easy to say, “I think these are signs telling me not to work out.” But then where would I be?
God allows us to experience a journey, actually many different journeys, but each journey has a hurdle or two or more. As I see it, a hurdle is placed there by the devil, but under God’s guidance. God knows the hurdle is placed there and its like a competition between God and the Devil. God has faith that you will overcome the hurdle, the devil hopes you don’t and that you give up. So how you handle the hurdle is up to you, God wills it to happen but the decision of how you overcome it is all YOU. God doesn’t set out to make you feel like a failure, that is all the devil’s work.
It would have been easy to just be mad at the world and not do anything, at all or anymore.
When I was able to put weight on my foot I began to just walk. I got my walker and slowly I walked down the driveway and as far as I could go down the street, taking breaks when I needed to.
My thumb, thankfully, is alsmost healed to the point of being able to be sealed by putting some New Skin, the liquid bandage, over the wound so that I can get back into the pool.
I continued my healthy eating, I adjusted my exercise routine and I still lost some weight this week.
Be a wine to others’ lemonade, let them look at you in bewilderment . Let them sit and wonder how you had so many hurdles, but yet they never stopped you on your journey. Most people expecct you to fail, but the only person you need to believe that you will succeed is YOU!
When a road has one of those big wooden “ROAD CLOSED” sign, what do you do? Do you just sit there, stopped in your tracks; just staring at the blocakade? No! You find a way to get around it so you get to your final destination, your goal.
Today is my birthday. I am so excited. This will be the first year that the annual local town carnival/festival has their last day parade on my birthday. On my birthday, oh in my mind, it will feel like a parade just for me, celebrating my birthday. LOL, *but that is our little secret* 😉
I remember when I was growing up, my mom always baked what the birthday person wanted for their choice of cake. She would bake the cake, put candles in the top and light them as everyone else sang, “Happy Birthday”.
My brother and dad, they always chose their favorite German Chocolate. When it was my mom’s birthday I would make her a German Chocolate cake.
But when it came to my birthday, I was the oddball. I didn’t want German Chocolate, nor vanilla, nor rainbow or sprinkles. I didn’t want frosting on my choice either.
In fact, I didn’t want a typical cake at all. I wanted strawberry shortcake, which was made with a bisquick sweet biscuit. Now it’s not the norm for a birthday, in fact, how do you really put candles on a tiny cake topped with strawberries and cool whip. You really can’t. You just have a candle or a numeral candle…but every year my mom would make it for me without hesitation and of course extras for everyone else to enjoy.
Since my mom passed, the birthday celebrations have changed. In fact, all traditions, holidays and celebrations have changed. I tried to carry on traditions but thy are not the same and now that my brother has also passed, traditions are nearly nonexistent.
But this year, I will make my Strawberry Shortcake. I will enjoy every bite of it. I will use my stevia, I will by some Reddi Whip(come on admit it…it tastes better than the Cool Whip, however..Cool Whip now has sugar free…hmm I may have to reconsider my options and how many carbs are in each. I know Reddi Whip does have sugar in it.) But I will make some low carb sweet biscuits. Oh my, my mouth is salvating already.
So my question for you is this: When it’s your birthday, do you stay on plan or treat it as a freebie day?
Warning you are entering the Construction Zone:
Please excuse the lanes being closed down to one and the cones set up to help avoid the potholes along my journey.
If you decide to travel my path with me, expect it to be long with a few bumps along the way, but know that I shall not get deviated from my voyage.
I ain’t going to lie, I may need your help in case my vehicle breaks down. I am going to say that I may need your assistance. There may come a time where I will need your support to help hold up the body as I add the proper fuel to get me going again and for you to feed my spirit and soul with postive and helpful words of wisdom.
If you can’t provide me with roadside assistance after I contact you when I swerve off the path, then I don’t need your service at all.
I am unsure how long the construction will last, but I assure you the final project with be utterly breathtaking and cause others to want to go on the same path.
You can do what you put your mind to..No excuses!
You see someone running a 5K and you want to run, but you feel you can’t.
You see someone gracefully dancing and wishing you could dance like that, but you believe you can’t.
You see a toned person lifting 50 pounds, you wished you could look like that but you can’t lift weights.
Guess what when these people started they weren’t able to do it either. The results you are seeing started someplace.
Just like a child learninig to walk, it starts out with tiny steps and progresses each time.
When you see someone, you do no tknow their story. You are destroying yourself by seeing their results without knowing their journey.
If you saw the runner starting out at 350 pounds and not able to steadily run for even 2 minutes, would you still be feeling so envious right now.
If you saw the dancer starting her journey heavily breathing and falling on all her turns, would you still be jealolus?
If you saw that toned person at the beginning of her journey lifting only 11 pound weights, would you even have given her a second thought?
Truth is everyone starts their journey for the same reason to be a better version of who they were, wether it is to behealthier, stronger, more flexible they wanted to be better.
And to be better they all started their journey with a belief. The belie that yes they CAN.
No one starts out being an atheletic runner, a skilled dancer, or a well toned weight lifter; it takes tiny steps and small goals to make the big goal a reality.
You think you can, guess what…YOU CAN!
Don’t eat to just lose ten pounds, eat to change your unhealthy habits.
Many people eat and lose ten pounds only to then go back to their previous lifestyle.
They forgot that the previous lifestyle is why they needed to change in the first place.
Why would you change your lifestyle for the good and see the benefits only to go back to the unhealthiness.
This WOE is not just about losing weight, it’s about being healthy.
Just because you can lose ten pounds, it does not mean that inside you are healthy.
Truth is that ten pounds could have just been lost in one week, the first week which is usually water weight.
So yeah woo hoo you lost ten pounds and you are starting to healthify your body, but if you go back to your previous lifestyle of eating you undo all the good you started.
I just don’t understand why anyone would do that.
Remember during Ramadan you can still stay on this WOE.
Don’t use Ramadan as an excuse to wave off the low carb path.
Wishing everyone a Ramadan Mubara(Blessed Ramadan) and Kul’am wa enta bi-khair(May every year find you in good health)!
This past week one of my good friends passed away at an early age, he left behind a beautiful wife and 4 daughters. Yes, when I say an early age I do mean he was my age. The cause of death was heart attack with clogged artieries. Drs had prewarned him months prior to have tests done and even when he waas experiencing chest pains just days before his passing, he did not go seek medical attention.
At the end of the week I had heard that another one of my friends, even younger yet as he just turned 21, was arrested for a Felony and drug possession. He is looking at a minimum of 5 years behind prsion bars, leaving behind a beautiul 3 years old. He had doctor warnings and previous close calls. His addiction caused him to obtain Hepatitis C.
Another example, my ex, his life is slipping away as h is spiraling into his herion addiction and when doing so he is worsening his Hepatitis C. He is 6’4″ and his weight is 120. It breaks my heart to see his weight increasingly get smaller. He has had numerous warnings from doctors, addictions specialists, counselors, therapists, cops, judges, friends, family, etc.
These people have seen their family and friends die before them from not listening to their doctors or following advice from others.
Why are people ignoring warnings when it comes to their health?
Do people think that they are part cats and actually have 9 lives?
When my mom passed in 2010, she did so after not listening to the advice of her doctor. She was diabetic but could not stay away from the unhealthy eating. That unhealthy eating caused her diabetic body to go into renal failure.
The year my mom died is when I started my healthy way of eating, my new lifestyle of low carb. I did not want my life to be a shadow of hers. I wanted what I saw motivate me to not be the same.
For six years I have been enjoying Low Carb. I have had setbacks, mainly my disability which effected my mobility so exercise is very limited, however, I still continue. If it wasn’t for my vigilance to stay on track with low carb, I would be much heavier and unhealthier today. I may still be pudgy, but at least I am healthy.
As of today I have no diabetes, no high blood pressure, no tumors, no masses, no hypertension, no blood clots, no heart problems, no gout, no sleep apnea, no high cholesterol, etc..
I did have a non functioning gall bladder that was removed, but that was from the rapid weight loss rather than obesity.
At this moment I am just dumbfouned.
I am trying to understand why people who have people that love them are not trying to be their best? You have children depending on you to be there for them in their lives as a parent, a friend, a mentor. Why are they throwing their lives away and not listening to the medical professionals and people who have been in that position before? Why are they not learning from the examples others have gone through?
I am still boggled and all I can think to do is pray.
Pray for these souls to change before its too late and they can not. Pray that they see life as only being lived once and to not take it for granted, believing that they are themselves invincible.
No one person is invincible, Only ALLAH is invincible.